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Aloha means….

….Hello. And goodbye. And I love you. And love, compassion, peace, mercy. And probably some other things too, but these I know off the top of my head. And why am I pointing this out? Earlier this week Pastor Kaitlin called and asked if I would be a lector for the Easter Vigil service. I told her that no, I wouldn’t, and explained why. Tomorrow is the fourth anniversary of my son Steve’s death from Continue reading

The Bellero Shield

Many years ago (um, 48 to be exact…) and long before my TV and movie phobia manifested itself, I used to watch the show “Outer Limits.” One episode has literally haunted me for all those 48 years. An altruistic, benign alien comes to earth and someone tries to kill it. It produces a protective shield. The would-be killer manages to use the shield for herself, but is unable to lower it and becomes trapped behind Continue reading

Another Funeral

“It’s so nice to see and talk with you!” said Judy, as we met by my car to exchange a package. Obviously there is not much “seeing and talking” going on with the pandemic. “How are the chickens?” she asked as we chatted. “Good,” I replied, adding that we (and numerous chicken-raising friends) had just gone through a prolonged molt, and the now newly feathered chickens had just started routinely laying eggs again. “I’m getting Continue reading

Hiking the World

So, my New Years resolution is to hike all 193 (or 195 depending on your source) countries of the world. This will be difficult, since I don’t have a passport. But YouTube to the rescue! I have been using the site to take train “trips” recently, and have found them strangely motivating. Why not the world? So, today I began my treadmill trip by visiting Kabul, Afghanistan, followed by a strenuous (virtually, that is….) trek Continue reading

The Homecoming

I lost my dog this week. I walked out the “gulch gate” to pick some heliconia for a wreath I was making and both Lily and Akamai followed me out….usually not a problem, but a cat came out from under the bridge….and both dogs took off in pursuit. Akamai (such a good boy….) did return when I called, but Lily the whippet mix could not resist her inherent hunt/chase instinct, and she was probably already Continue reading

Sleep With Blessings

“When you worry, and you can’t sleep, count your blessings instead of sheep, and you’ll fall asleep counting your blessings.” That Christmas song was playing on my computer when the phone call came. Our neighbor, Cliff, had heard the ambulance sirens as they went up our road, had followed to offer assistance, and it was he who called me at work. David had fallen twenty feet from the ladder onto the concrete porch. A two Continue reading

We Wait

The patient was singularly uninterested in self-care, refusing physical therapy, medications and most interventions. They had been hospitalized for months for a life-threatening condition and subsequent complications. When I gave report to the accepting doctor at the rehab facility I pointed out the patient’s lack of interest in participating….in anything…., and opined that any functional recovery would be unlikely given the lack of effort. Physicians wait. We wait for test results to guide therapeutic choices. Continue reading

The Poinsettia

The instructions said that in order to make my Poinsettia bloom again, it needs to spend time outdoors in the summer, then be cut back in the fall, and then experience uninterrupted darkness for at least 15 hours a day until Thanksgiving. Cut the plant back, plant it, dig it up, replant it, place it in a closet, take it out of the closet…the discussion went on for pages. Certainly more work than I wanted Continue reading

The Christmas Tree

Our Christmas tree cutting permit had arrived, and we made a last minute decision to drive “‘up north” to Arizona’s high desert to cut one. Throwing a half-bag of cookies and some sodas in the truck, my husband and I and our young son, then about 4, took off on a Saturday morning adventure. We knew the cutting area well, having camped in the area over the previous two summers. A storm had come through Continue reading

Oh That Smell!

It’s the smell I remember, mostly. Thanksgiving Day at Grandma R’s house always greeted me with an assault on the nostrils. The extended family (usually about twelve of us) would gather at the large dining room table, summoned by the 4pm gong of the large pendulum clock on the wall, and wait for the dishes to appear from the small kitchen behind us. There was the aroma of the roasted turkey of course, and the Continue reading

Yell first…ask questions later (part II)

I was standing in the lightbulb aisle at the hardware store, scanning the shelves (fruitlessly) for 3-way bulbs. While I scanned, I became aware of the muzac….and realized I was listening to a Christmas song. It was not even the middle of October, and they were playing “Bring a Torch, Jeannette, Isabella.” Now, I love me some Christmas carols, and I admit that I have been known to start playing my own holiday files soon Continue reading

The Rainbow

We woke to the news of hijacked planes crashing into the Pentagon and World Trade Center Towers. A plane crashed in rural Pennsylvania, also hijacked and purposely downed. With the rest of the world, we were riveted to TV and radio, listening in horror as the well-planned attack unfolded. With the rest of the world, we prayed for the victims and their families. We went through our workdays by rote, a numbness permeating everything we Continue reading